Everything begins to decay In a world so mundane, still these tragedies remain in my heartscape Feel like I am floating away Disassociate the feelings from events before me, my headspace Feels like I'm unraveling, traveling from the scene In a life that I would never have been A normal life that I would never have seen, for it to lead To a time I could not claim to be me I couldn't claim to be me I couldn't claim to be me And I sing Normal songs for normal people And I tried To be normal in a time, a time like this And I sing Normal songs for normal people And I tried To feel normal in a place, a place like this Still resiliently hoping that my life could change For the better or worse, I still look at my options Will I ever be considered as an everyday man Just living life on the cusp, of something so mundane Could I claim to be me? Could I claim to be me? Has my life changed? Am I safe from the shadows? In the waves of time, have I been lifted from the freakshow I know, I never fit here to begin with, I know Yet still I hold onto hope Yet still I hold onto hope Could I claim to be me? Could I claim to be me? And I sing Normal songs for normal people And I tried To be normal in a time, a time like this And I sing Normal songs for normal people And I tried To feel normal in a place, a place like this Everything begins to awake In the spring of my life, I am choosing the path to stay

Wreak hell To all my enemies, enemies in my head There are friends that I could never be, never be in the end Yeah I tried to kill them all, kill them all but I'm insane So all I have to say is wreak hell, wreak hell, wreak hell! Game over, it's over for all you maggots (fuck that!) I am here and I'm queer, don't give a fuck how you feel When you are looking for meaning in places you can't find Just gotta listen to the voices you hear in your mind Big guns and hot suns, you don't know hell Till you give all your fucks up to someone else I have died and I'll die again, don't fucking try me Cause I am here to slay, now sashay away Wreak hell (Wreak hell!) Here's a song written by voices in my head They will only ever shut up when I'm dead (Wreak hell!) Integration's off the plate, they're here to stay Know that I'm insane but all I gotta say (Wreak hell!) Coping for trauma the drama of it all, in my head There is no mantra I need, when I've already got them Friends or foes, a bunch of different characters Know that I am insane but all I gotta say (Wreak hell!) Know that in sanity, sanity's not the same when your Voices aren't happy and you're physically insane No you aren't taken care of and you really do need help Stop denying all this noise to yourself I am worried, I always am, it's kind of what I do I know my place in this system, but the cleaning's overdue There is always more work for us to do There is always some work for me to do (Wreak hell!) Here's a song written by voices in my head They will only ever shut up when I'm dead (Wreak hell!) Integration's off the plate, they're here to stay Know that I'm insane but all I gotta say (Wreak hell!) Coping for trauma the drama of it all, in my head There is no mantra I need, when I've already got them Friends or foes, a bunch of different characters Know that I'm insane but all I gotta say (Wreak hell!) Wreak hell Now darling listen here, and if you hear the rage Break the cage on a new page, you're fine, you're fine, you're fine! I am here, and I've always been, isn't that concerning? I am you, and you're fake, isn't that comforting? Now on the stage called life, masquarade your emotions There is no one god, that you cannot kill You're fine, you're fine, you're fine, who am I? There is no one devil, that can kill my stride (Wreak hell!) Here's a song written by voices in my head They will only ever shut up when I'm dead (Wreak hell!) Integration's off the plate, they're here to stay Know that I'm insane but all I gotta say (Wreak hell!) Coping for trauma the drama of it all, in my head There is no mantra I need, when I've already got them Friends or foes, a bunch of different characters Know that I'm insane but all I gotta say (Wreak hell!) Wreak hell

How long has it been, since I last felt at all? I have cut, bruised, and burned, yet continue to fall Down this pit, there is nothing to see but the thoughts And the phantom of somebody calling the shots! Is it me? I don't feel I'm the one in control My body moves along, still posessed by my soul And I look from afar as I walk on my own There is nothing in me but a haze I call my home This blurry haze I can't control I don't feel real, no I don't feel whole This skin feels fake, doesn't feel like my own And yet nothing feels real - like a dream, I walk alone In this blurry haze I walk alone This blurry haze I call my own Spill my heart and my mind, have no idea who I am As time spirals, and clocks spin, my heart is frozen Let my mind rest easy, I will be free once at last Bye for now, sown in my seeds, I see through my path My hands are static, but I cannot feel my skin I'm disconnected from the body that I'm in, and My mind is sleeping but the body's awake So please forgive me if I feel like I'm fake This blurry haze I can't control I don't feel real, no I don't feel whole This skin feels fake, doesn't feel like my own And yet nothing feels real - like a dream, I walk alone In this blurry haze I walk alone This blurry haze I call my own I'm sleepwalking but this isn't a dream Sleep talking but I just want to scream I'm sleepwalking but this isn't a dream Sleep talking but I just want to scream (I'm not awake, I am not okay) (I'm not awake, I am not okay) Hovering off my body, yet still somehow inside The stranger in the mirror, screams I'm dead inside Everything feels fake, feel like I'm floating away Drowning in a swimming pool, my mind's gone away This blurry haze I can't control I don't feel real, no I don't feel whole This skin feels fake, doesn't feel like my own And yet nothing feels real - like a dream, I walk alone In this blurry haze I walk alone This blurry haze I call my own None of this feels real, It's all just a dream Or is all of it real? It's so hard to see All we know is that it all feels fake, in the end And when I come back to me, it's too real to pretend

I love you I say as desperation takes me over The words are flimsy like the gun in your mind The trigger pulled and we both know that it's over It's over It's over It's over I loved you, I loved you I lost you, I lost you, I lost you Unforgiving in it's grace Time moved on and replaced me When I see her in my dreams I wonder does she miss me There is no love that lasts Nobody to sedate me I loved you, I loved you I lost you, I lost you, I lost you Unforgiving in it's grace Time moved on and replaced me When I see him in my dreams I wonder does he miss me There is no love that lasts Even this grief will pass She killed me so many times in her mind When I left, all the feelings I kept silent In my chest, I cried for years my love I tried for years and years and years But the love does pass, and when I see your name The hole I kept in my heart doesn't beat the same If there is something I wouldn't give to see The pieces of my soul that I left with you I loved you, I loved you I lost you, I lost you, I lost you Unforgiving in it's grace Time moved on and replaced me When I see her in my dreams I wonder does she miss me There is no love that lasts Nobody to sedate me I loved you, I loved you I lost you, I lost you, I lost you Unforgiving in it's grace Time moved on and replaced me When I see him in my dreams I wonder does he miss me There is no love that lasts Even this grief will pass In time I've come to see the world as it is, as it is In time I've come to realize the truth, and the grief You wouldn't see me now, you wouldn't see what makes me tick All the things that you once knew, you once knew to be true I'll never grant your wish, forget disease or the rot The immaturity and lies, and insecurity Though I do not resent you, through all the colors of grief I will never come back to you, you've lost me too I loved you, I loved you I lost you, I lost you, I lost you Unforgiving in it's grace Time moved on and replaced me When I see her in my dreams I wonder does she miss me There is no love that lasts Nobody to sedate me I loved you, I loved you I lost you, I lost you, I lost you Unforgiving in it's grace Time moved on and replaced me When I see him in my dreams I wonder does he miss me There is no love that lasts Even this grief will pass

Ever since I've lost the things that made me, I Needed to put all the memories down to rest In my deathbed know the guilt has never left Still my dreams betray me, old friend My old friend Loss! Yet my dreams betray me old friend! To wish I'd never have lost To wish I'd never have loved To never seen or experienced this end My dear friend! Everything begins to decay, once a life that was lived, will be a body in a grave and I had lost all the things that I'd loved And in the cycle of new, I'd never once questioned the loss And my dreams betray me, old friend There's a life that I had never seen, yet In my dreams I have seen everything, then When I wake up there are tears on my bed Loss! Yet my dreams betray me old friend! To wish I'd never have lost To wish I'd never have loved To never seen or experienced this end My dear friend! Ever since I've lost the things that made me, I Needed to put all the memories down to rest In my deathbed know the guilt has never left Still my dreams betray me Old friend

If we ever meet again, let it be not in your head But in a place - in a game, with our happy endings Dissociation aside, I wish that I was on this ride Have a body, have a reality outside your mind I would be a friend - I wouldn't live inside But I am who I am, and I ain't part of this life My name's Matt An alternate reality of who I once was, and who I aspired to be I am a brother, a bother, I am what Nate's got under covers Call me monster, I live under your fuckin' bed! Imagination, a fictive of their creation I am a gamer and gentleman, the lady's man I am the bro, a sibling you wish that you had And now I'm back so let's fuck up what makes you mad! I was dormant for a while, now I'm back again You told me I was your bro, and that we stayed the same Elizabeth and the monster, the new dude and the kid Even Shius was still there when I rose from the dead Banish me from your memory, but still I remained I went dormant but reality betrayed you again! Now I am back and I'm livid, but that won't change the truth I still hope that you will realize what's stopping you My name's Matt An alternate reality of who I once was, and who I aspired to be I am a brother, a bother, I am what Nate's got under covers Call me monster, I live under your fuckin' bed! Imagination, a fictive of their creation I am a gamer and gentleman, the lady's man I am the bro, a sibling you wish that you had And now I'm back so let's fuck up what makes you mad! Remember high school? That was some bullshit right there Rumors spread about your family, about your sanity and Faculty was a tragedy, got you kicked out in the end All you had was your mind, and in your mind I reside Self harm, hospitalization ensued The suicidal thoughts bottled up when I was with you I tried to help, I really did, but what can I do? I'm just a fictive in your head that you know you can talk to Life's a game, and all the players in it stay the same Watch your cards, you never know, when shit will change but All your life, and all the life that I wish that I had It ain't over, it's not game over for you yet! My name's Matt An alternate reality of who I once was, and who I aspired to be I am a brother, a bother, I am what Nate's got under covers Call me monster, I live under your fuckin' bed! Imagination, a fictive of their creation I am a gamer and gentleman, the lady's man I am the bro, a sibling you wish that you had And now I'm back so let's fuck up what makes you mad!

One thousand times I cried, one thousand times I tried to die In the dreams that I've killed, I had a thousand tries Is there hope for the misfit yet? Is there hope in the music that the misfit sings again Is there hope for the misfit yet? Is there hope in the words that the misfit writes again Is there hope for the misfit yet? Is there hope for the misfit, hope for the misfit! Can't speak out loud, can't scream or shout! I was mute until now, 'til the music came around I sang a song I couldn't dare to speak! I sang along, to the rhythm of a beat! And you, another soul, you sang along I heard your voice, and couldn't help but shed a tear There was hope for a misfit, who sang a song! And that hope is there, you cannot prove me wrong! I sang about the things I couldn't speak Sang about the isolation of these dreams, I never could reach In delirium - my life was always bleak These things I never could obtain, a life I never seeked Is it weakness to say this, is it weak to vocalize All the suffering I've gone through, speaking up to open eyes And in time we've connected, and in time I've realized This was so much bigger than me, I still cannot die! Can't speak out loud, can't scream or shout! I was mute until now, 'til the music came around I sang a song I couldn't dare to speak! I sang along, to the rhythm of a beat! And you, another soul, you sang along I heard your voice, and couldn't help but shed a tear There was hope for a misfit, who sang a song! And that hope is there, you cannot prove me wrong! Is there hope for the misfit yet? Is there hope in the music that the misfit sings again Is there hope for the misfits yet? Is there hope in the music that the misfits sing again Is there hope for the misfits yet? Is there hope in the words that the misfits write again In a lyric of a song I found a way to live In the sound of the music, I found I wanted to try There's a reason to live, there's a reason to hope There's these sounds in the backdrop, the songs we sing to cope If there is a tomorrow, I want to use it to create Something I never had, a song to keep some faith Is there hope for the misfits yet! Can't speak out loud, can't scream or shout! I was mute until now, 'til the music came around I sang a song I couldn't dare to speak! I sang along, to the rhythm of a beat! And you, another soul, you sang along I heard your voice, and couldn't help but shed a tear There was hope for a misfit, who sang a song! And that hope is there, you cannot prove me wrong!

通りゃんせ、通りゃんせ ここはどこの細道じゃ 天神様の細道じゃ ちっと通してくだしゃんせ 御用のないもの通しゃせぬ この子の七つのお祝いに お札を収めに参ります お帰り I'm still homesick for a place that I've never known, I've never known ただいま 帰れない、あのころには I'm never home, I'm never home! お帰りなさい、お帰りなさい I can never go home To a place I've never known 神のまにまに I was born into this world Where I do not belong, I do not belong 曇りそのまま Rain keeps pouring down on me On these streets of Tokyo, I cannot even see Concrete visions of a home, concrete monochromes Without a friend or family, there was no home for me そんなお帰りの無い日々 僕の孤独は死ねないままに お帰り I'm still homesick for a place that I've never known, I've never known ただいま 帰れない、あのころには I'm never home, I'm never home! お帰りなさい、お帰りなさい I can never go home To a place I've never known 行きはよいよい 帰りは恐い 怖いながらも 通りゃんせ 通りゃんせ 帰りたい でも帰るの 怖い I am not home here, I do not belong 僕は未だに帰れないまま Please let me go home, please let me go home 宛先もなく 歩く僕は 何のために生きて 死ぬのか 分からないと 叫んでそのまま 生き続けるのか そうか お帰り I'm still homesick for a place that I've never known, I've never known ただいま 帰れない、あのころには I'm never home, I'm never home! お帰りなさい、お帰りなさい I can never go home To a place I've never known 通りゃんせ、通りゃんせ ここはどこの細道じゃ 天神様の細道じゃ ちっと通してくだしゃんせ