Day 23, there's no new marks on me
I do know one day that things will start to change for the better
Day 24, withdrawal symptoms begone!
Today I wrote another letter I will never send
If the kid saw me now, I wonder, would she would be proud?
I am thriving on my own and there is life in me
There are doubts in my mind, and these scars on my arms
If I aim to redeem myself, I have to move on

I have to move on
I have to move on

Lived on my own, I'll die alone
Everyone has a death wish, and I can't atone
Try all I might, there's a weight on my shoulders
Cry all the time, I'll medicate when I'm older

Day 27, almost a month has passed
I think I'll reach my mark, there's still no scars on my arms
Day 28, I'll meet my therapist today
And If I still have time, I'll send these letters off
Day 29, and I still feel fine
I checked the news today, there was a little story
From a town I grew up in, from a college I dropped out
A man was found dead, hanging somewhere in the campus

Self medicate, to ease the pain
Self medicate, this chaos I can't take
Self medicate, when everything is destroyed
All these things that I feel, drown it down with a pill
This blinding pain that I feel
The only thing that's real

The only thing that's real

Lived on my own, I'll die alone
Everyone has a death wish, and I can't atone
Try all I might, there's a weight on my shoulders
Cry all the time, I'll medicate when I'm older

Day 0, I crashed and burned again
Resurfacing of my own trauma, the weight of the news
When I close my eyes, I can't escape that view
The man that died on that tree, he was someone that I knew
He was someone that I knew

(Get drunk, get high, try to forget the pain)
(Medication won't help you, erase the stain)
(Get drunk, get high, try to forget the pain)
(Medication won't help you, erase the stain)

(Get drunk, get high, try to forget the pain)
I can't move, I can't think
(Medication won't help you, erase the stain)
When the feelings hit, I feel myself begin to sink, I feel myself begin to sink!
(Get drunk, get high, try to forget the pain)
I can't feel, I can't see
(Medication won't help you, erase the stain)
If a God does exist, why does he want to punish me?
To punish me!

I can't move, I can't think
When the feelings hit, I feel myself begin to sink, I feel myself begin to sink!
I can't feel, I can't see
If a God does exist, why does he want to punish me?
To punish me!

Lived on my own, I'll die alone
Everyone has a death wish, and I can't atone
Try all I might, there's a weight on my shoulders
Cry all the time, I'll medicate when I'm older
Lived on my own, I'll die alone
Everyone has a death wish, and I can't atone
Try all I might, there's a weight on my shoulders
Cry all the time, I'll medicate when I'm older

I need to find a way, I need to know somehow
When I uncover what happened, I'll take my final bow
I'll take my final bow

I'll take my final bow