In this imperfect world, I thought I was the exception In this imperfect life, I thought I'd be God These delusions I feel, once bright and incandescent Make my reality seem as if I'm losing it In a person I once was, I still live In a brain that deceives me, I still exist Time goes on and I feel as if I'm seeing things The God I once knew says they can't keep me from hearing them All past, my time swept aside, I'm still here All my memories make me who I am today Call me ill or insane, you won't take this from me A single thought that I was not supposed to end like this I'm supposed to be perfect And then a riot ensues And then I wish I were you And then a riot ensues I'm supposed to be And then a riot ensues And then I wish I were you And then a riot ensues I'm supposed to be perfect In a healthy demeanor, you cannot see I'm inane To my own hallucinations, I know that I'm insane All these labels I'm given, deteriorate who I am All the illness has taken, will not be given back I know my fate is to live, as if I'm strong enough To fight against what I can't see, what I can only hear I have to make things right, or die and hold my peace I cannot lose tonight, I still refuse to die Because the God that I know, they're still here by my side They tell me things aren't perfect, but that I'll be alright All these shadows I'm attached to will not take me away I will not kill myself until I see another day And then a riot ensues And then I wish I were you And then a riot ensues I'm supposed to be And then a riot ensues And then I wish I were you And then a riot ensues I'm supposed to be Sleepless nights I'm awake, I consider my options I keep on holding onto hope as if there's any for me Yet on these silent nights, I resist giving in To all the demons that I know cannot be real for you It's a painful reaction, when I cannot see The numbing of what I've gone through, what you haven't felt But when the voices and the shadows out the corner of my eye Say I cannot be like them, I cannot help but cry All this pain and confusion, miscommunicate intentions I am not a God, I am barely a person I can't give up the fight, I won't just live for tonight Even when the silence kills me, I will not die And then a riot ensues And then I wish I were you And then a riot ensues I'm supposed to be And then a riot ensues And then I wish I were you And then a riot ensues I'm supposed to be perfect

Through all the pain, I found a way to get through I lived, lost and lied, but I loved As days go by, I'm finding peace in myself I fought, changed, evolved, and persevered Give me all of your bruises, all your cuts and burns Talk through all of your losses and share your soul with me You have never recovered, yet you strive for peace You are running, still fighting for closure in your heart Keep moving, don't look back or you'll see hell You've fought, changed, evolved, and persevered All our past is gone, they're all but memories now You lived, lost and lied, but you loved We're not the same Anymore, anymore We're not the kids You remember from back then Everything has changed We've loved and we've lied Everything has changed For us To the things that keep you here, no matter what they are To the things that make you stronger even when you fall Your pride, your anger fear or your love You've got everything you need to keep up, keep on, keep on moving on When the pain becomes numb, when you can't get out of bed Get something, change something so you don't die All the lives that you've touched, all the screens that you've past You lived, you lost and you lied, but you loved We're not the same Anymore, anymore We're not the kids You remember from back then Everything has changed We've lived and we've lied Everything has changed For us Through all the pain, I found a way to get through I lived, lost and lied, but I loved As days go by, I'm finding peace in myself I fought, changed, evolved, and persevered In this desolate place, we leave our virtual remains We lived, lost and lied but we loved We were nothing more, but we were nothing less Than the choices that we made along the way through our path All these remenants, all these artifacts of life Share a single shred of hope that we will be remembered If we aren't missed, then we will never be found We fought, changed, evolved, and persevered So let me wish you the best, in all these changing times I will not be remembered, but I won't forget When your scars heal one day, and you don't need to look back I will still be here, unchanging in this song We're not the same Anymore, anymore We're not the kids You remember from back then Everything has changed We've lived and we've loved Everything has changed For us Through all the pain, I found a way to get through I lived, lost and lied, but I loved As days go by, I'm finding peace in myself

There is a line between, being alive and the survival of a human mind In a body where we cannot thrive, we cannot move or communicate what is on our minds Somewhere we cannot die. It's unfortunate to say, Mrs. Martha won't be on her way, on this day She said she'd visit you but not today, not today, she has her work and she cannot stay, not today. I would have cried if I could, I would have screamed that I was hearing things, hearing things But you won't listen when I cannot see, cannot see, cause I am nothing at all I am no one when I cannot move. Panic ensues And I can't feel, I can't move The dark consumes And I can't see, I can't see When this is over I won't ever sleep again When this is over I will never call you my friend Panic ensues And I can't feel, I can't move The dark consumes And I can't see, I can't see When this is over I won't ever sleep again When this is over I will never see you, my friend There's a knock on the door, feels like today is different I hear your voice as you sit down, you're stroking my hand And yet when you say my name, I hear a man say "stop it" He says to leave me alone, that I'm not coming back And I just want to cry, I just want to scream All these voices on the outside would not know how this feels But I still want to live, I don't want to die As the two argued I raised my voice and cried out in the dark There is a line between, being alive and the survival of a human mind In a body where we cannot thrive, we cannot move or communicate what is on our minds Somewhere we cannot die. Panic ensues And I can't feel, I can't move The dark consumes And I can't see, I can't see When this is over I won't ever sleep again When this is over I will never call you my friend Panic ensues And I can't feel, I can't move The dark consumes And I can't see, I can't see When this is over I won't ever sleep again When this is over I will never see you, my friend And I hear animals outside, the soft chirping of the birds I hear the wind as it blows, but don't feel it on my skin It's a funny feeling, to have cried out at last And knowing that I'm incapable, I will say my farewell All the love that you brought, you were the only one who came And when you talked to me, you said that you still believed That I was coming back, I would never have doubted But as I fall asleep, I'll say I'm sorry. As they stood up to leave, the monitor would start beeping His signal flatlining, they ran to call his doctor When they came back to him, she rushed to grasp his face She barely noticed as she wept that there were tears in his eyes There is a line between, being alive and the survival of a human mind In a body where we cannot thrive, we cannot move or communicate what is on our minds Somewhere we want to die. Panic ensues And I can't feel, I can't move The dark consumes And I can't see, I can't see When this is over I won't ever sleep again When this is over I will never call you my friend Panic ensues And I can't feel, I can't move The dark consumes And I can't see, I can't see When this is over I won't ever sleep again When this is over I will never see you, my friend

In the blinding light, I couldn't open my eyes See the things I felt, no matter how I tried I was rapidly approaching what I thought was the end But when I opened my eyes, I saw what it all meant In the ceiling of time, I touched my demons at last I saw a person crying, as they clutched on my past Body, molded and dark, with a shadow overcast I saw another me die, when I opened my eyes. I wish I knew what it meant, when you had told me goodbye I wish that I was awake, don't wanna see you cry This was all a mistake, I never meant to make you sad When I wake up again, I will forget I ever had All the love that you gave me, all the people I trust I could never repay them, all I did was fuck up when I wake up again, I will have nothing to say When I wake up again - I lie idly in bed, its dark and I can't see My hands are shaking and I know that I am hearing things Sounds beside my bed feels faint as if I'm still dreaming But when I opened my eyes I saw your shadow Then there was an agony, like a scar that had opened I saw you tearing through my skin and reaching into me There was my beating heart, followed by flatlining signals My vision stayed the same as if I had already died And all the time that I'd trusted you, you stayed the same Never changing and stable, like a pillar of hope But as you gripped my beating heart you smiled and you said Something I couldn't hear without me breaking down inside Details are hazy, but I was sure that you said it Even while changing into people who I never knew You put my heart in your pocket, and turned away from me Last thing I screamed out when I woke was that I loved you Another day another nightmare, thats fair Another day I get to deal with trauma I never caused Another day and I am elsewhere, I swear When I am finally free, I won't be in between The pain I feel and what's real, I know how bad it feels When you can't even see whats right there and present I cannot feel the difference between all the colors and grey My heads a fucking mess but I am not your patient I wish I knew what it meant, when you had told me goodbye I wish that I was awake, don't wanna see you cry This was all a mistake, I never meant to make you sad When I wake up again, I will forget I ever had All the love that you gave me, all the people I trust I could never repay them, all I did was fuck up When I wake up again, I will have nothing to say When I wake up again - While I'm alive, I'll find a way While I'm awake, I'll face another day While my heart keeps up, I will change and grow So I can say that I love you so And now I'm finally awake, and you're right by my side With a worried glance, you took my hand as I sighed Sometimes I'm mad at you, sometimes you make me sad But through the thick and thin, you've made me better I wish I knew what it meant, when I dreamt of goodbyes I wish I'd stay awake, so I'd never leave your side Things will be okay, I will be alright Things will stay the same, I will be just fine All the love that you gave me, all the people I trust I will one day repay them, I will one day live up when I wake up again, I'll have you by my side When I wake up again, I won't fuck up this time