1. |
My Heart Stopped Beating
04:19
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I am not dead, but I'm not alive
I traverse a world I hate on my borrowed time, it was a
Failed suicide back in February when my
Heart stopped beating but still I survived
Cause I was tired of my life, sick and alone
And I was weary in a place I could not call my home
So when I drank 2 bottles, each a 100 tablets
I was gonna say goodbye to a world I disowned
In this place that I call my home, I wanna
Say goodbye to a world I've known, because I'm
Sick and tired of life's bullshit
Sick and tired of my bullshit
My heart stopped beating yet I'm still alive
It was in apathy I tried to take my own life
Cause I was tired of a world where I could not cry
And I was tired of the hope that I could never, ever deny
I was in bed when I prepared to die
It was the cries of a friend that made me save my life
I took an Uber and I went into emergency
They took me in almost immediately when I said
I was so sleepy that I couldn't walk around
I was so tired that I couldn't hear the sound of my
Heart monitor, beeping louder than ever
I stayed awake but I slipped, I couldn't move my two lips
Without any last words I closed my eyes and fell asleep
In this place that I call my home, I wanna
Say goodbye to a world I've known, because I'm
Sick and tired of life's bullshit
Sick and tired of my bullshit
My heart stopped beating yet I'm still alive
It was in apathy I tried to take my own life
Cause I was tired of a world where I could not cry
And I was tired of the hope that I could never, ever deny
When I opened my eyes I was awake
There was no one beside me, but the IV and an ache
When I sighed, this wasn't the way I wanted to die
All alone in a world where I am scared to try to live
There was an apathy, still I couldn't feel
No remorse or regret, for the trust that I killed
I was a, living zombie, better off dead
But somehow, still alive - I felt stronger than I'd ever been
Bad days, worse days came after
I was walking through the fire alone, still on my own
I was living in a limbo of trauma that I have known
When I decided to get help for the scars that I have sown
And I am still bleeding, still bent, but now I'm fighting
There are times I wish I'd given up, but I'm still trying
And when I, stop moving forward's the day I die
I won't hesitate to try, I am still not afraid of death
But there are songs to be made, there are people to trust
I've been so busy alive, I don't think that I'll try
To kill myself, not now, hopefully not ever
But the future's unknown, and this won't last forever
So if I try to die again, god knows if I will survive
But there is hope in a life, when I tried to fight
Cause there is apathy, and there's another side to life
At the end of the day, I'm all that I've done right
In this place that I call my home, I wanna
Say goodbye to a world I've known, because I'm
Sick and tired of life's bullshit
Sick and tired of my bullshit
My heart stopped beating yet I'm still alive
It was in apathy I tried to take my own life
Cause I was tired of a world where I could not cry
And I was tired of the hope that I could never, ever deny
I was in hospital beds when I thought of my strife
It was the death of me that brought me back to life
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2. |
I Dream of Violence
03:31
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I dream of fratricide
In a place where I'm free, let the monsters hide
What the violence speaks to me
Mental instability, coping within a fantasy
All I ever sought to destroy, was what I let it be
In the place of guidance and law, I was defiantly
Wishing for a death of a God that had created me
I dream of violence behind these walls
(It was just a mistake)
Bones cracking, screaming within these halls
(All the scars that remain)
I would never hurt you, like you did me
I don't want to break you, like I have been
I dream of violence behind these walls
In a past long forgotten, like the paths left untrodden
You took the burden of the wrath you felt on objects like me
Feigning un-emotion, apathetic of the problem
All I was to you was like a plate you shattered on the ground
That's all I've ever been, just a cog in the system
Part of something generational that I "don't understand"
Kill the child in me, kill all I could ever be
I will have my revenge when I have cried myself to sleep
I will have my revenge, when I finally find peace
I dream of violence behind these walls
(You had misbehaved)
Bones cracking, screaming within these halls
(Never asked to be made)
I would never hurt you, like you did me
I don't want to break you, like I have been
I dream of violence behind these walls
In the end, all I have to say
(I won't be like you, I won't be like -)
When you're dead, what is left for you?
(You said God's your judge, you said God's your judge)
All the times that you hurt me, I did not fight
All the scars that you gave me, I will not hide
I dream of violence, but I won't die
Break the chain I was forged in, break away from the hate
Second chances are rare, but I will change my fate
If I need medication, if this means I am insane
I will gladly be confined so I could start again
I'm already dead, I live on borrowed time
I chant in bitterness the life I don't want them to suffer
I am my father's daughter, but I refuse to be him
Dreams of violence won't kill who I have chosen to be
I dream of violence behind these walls
(It was just a mistake)
Bones cracking, screaming within these halls
(All the scars that remain)
I would never hurt you, like you did me
I don't want to break you, like I have been
I dream of violence behind these walls
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3. |
Dissociative Identity
04:14
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A little bit like a mystery, the voices in my head
A little bit of my misery, she frowns as she says
The things I live by are not things that they would dare understand
The girl that guides me is a friend that I could never have planned
Dissociative, the doctor puts my feet on the ground
I've never hated, the system that had given me sound
When I was younger these delusions weren't always the same
Now that I have a name, I know that I won't ever be sane
And there were five of us, each one a facet of myself
No one that guided us, but we were standing by ourselves
I am not crazy, but acceptance won't just let me come clean
These personalities won't ever be apart from me
A little bit like a mystery, the voices in my head
A little bit of my misery, he nods as he says
The things I take for granted, I could not dare live without
The man that guides me is a friend that I could never doubt
Dissociative Identity, I was just a kid
With no strength to retaliate, I could not forgive
Abuse I don't remember, and the trauma that I do
Gave me strength through the voices that I could never subdue
Elizabeth, Cube, and my unconscious pursuit
Of a god that would love me, and a kid un-abused
Made remains of a memory, I dare not see through
In the time of a childhood that I could never undo
A little bit like a mystery, the voices in my head
A little bit of my misery, they smile as they said
I never doubted for a minute that you'd leave our side
The voice that guides me is a mask that I never could pry
But let me scream, all I wanted was to be by myself
When I cry, I don't hear my own voice saying these words
I had to lie, if I'm crazy I don't wanna be here
I cannot die, when the others try to keep me from fear
All my life
All my life
All my life, I
Tried to hear
Tried to do
What they wanted me to be
In my mind
In my mind
In my mind, I
Cannot be
Cannot do
What they wanted me to do
A little bit like a mystery, the voices in my head
A little bit of my misery, it screamed when I said
I want to be who I am, I want to live like they are
The voices echoed in my head that I won't be on my own
Dissociative Identity, I was just a kid
With no strength to retaliate, I could not forgive
Abuse I don't remember, and the trauma that I do
Gave me strength through the voices that I could never subdue
Elizabeth, Cube, and my unconscious pursuit
Of a god that would love me, and a kid un-abused
Made remains of a memory, I dare not see through
In the time of a childhood that I could never undo
Dissociative Identity, identity
Dissociative Identity, I was just a kid
Dissociative Identity, I could not forgive
Dissociative Identity, I was just a kid
With no strength to retaliate
Abuse I don't remember
A god that would love me
A god that would love me, love me, love me
Made remains of a memory, I dare not see through
In the time of a childhood that I could never undo
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4. |
Dig My Grave
03:40
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Dear diary I dug my grave again
They think I'm happy but I can't seem to pretend
Dear diary I think I'm still depressed
It should be obvious, I've got no reason to stress
But when the night comes in, and the room gets dark
I find myself stuck in this hole that I'm digging for myself
(Again and again)
Cause I can't seem to change, and I can't seem to be free
Even though the storm has passed there's still rain falling on me
I am scared to change, I am scared of happiness
I'll admit that, in a grave that I continue to dig
The depression gets deeper, every time I think I'm through
There's no light at the end, when I look through this view
And I want to be happy, yeah I know I want to change
But I'm terrified of ever coming out of this cage
So spare me the pain, this inner turmoil of mine
Medication will not help unless I want to be fine
I am scared of love, I am scared of trust
I am scared to change cause if I fall I know I won't get out
(Again and again)
And I can't seem to change, and I can't seem to be free
Even though the storm has passed there's still rain falling on me
I am scared to change, I am scared of happiness
I'll admit that, in a grave that I continue to dig
Dear diary I dug my grave again
They think I'm happy but I can't seem to pretend
Dear diary, when is enough, enough
I know I want to move, but lag behind with every step
Despair is quicksand here, I am walking as I sink
But I'll be damned if I let my fears become the best of me
Let me think before I move, let me plan my own escape
I'll rely on this rope, that leads outside of this maze
Anger fuel me through, I will live even in spite
I will not let myself die, in this broken state of mind
I will not let myself die, in this broken state of mind
(Again and again)
In this broken state of mind
Although I can't seem to change, and I can't seem to be free
The storm has passed and there is no rain that is falling on me
I am scared to change, I am scared of happiness
I'll admit that, in a grave that I am digging to be free
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5. |
Antipsychotics
05:00
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I can't sleep, the night's growing longer everyday
Any dreams that I have will become nightmares as I
I take more medication, antipsychotics are my drug
Gotta sleep before the panic, the panic sets in
Now as I lay me down to sleep, I pray the lord my soul to keep
And if I die before I wake, I pray the lord my soul to take
And I can't sleep
Panic disorder, I close my eyes and try and fail
To fall asleep through the night, nocturnal panic attacks
Wake me up - I keep falling and I can't get up
Night terrors, nightmares, another attack
To top it off when I wake up, I wake up exhausted
I will rest when I die, I will rest when I die
Every night is the same, when will it ever leave me be
All I want is a night where I can rest in peace
And my trial of death, just leaves me tired and scared
If I can't even sleep then god just let me die right now
I just want to rest! I just wanna be unconscious
I don't care for dreams, I'd rather sleep like death
So I drink pills to sleep, I need pills to fucking sleep
I can't try to relax, as my reality starts to crack
Antipsychotics are my drug, withdrawal symptoms with any of my luck
With this sickness I'm broken and I'm scared
That if I drop them I will be ill prepared
Antipsychotics are my drug, withdrawal symptoms with any of my luck
With this sickness I'm broken and I'm scared
That if I drop them I will not be prepared
To sleep
Panic disorder, I close my eyes and try and fail
To fall asleep through the night, nocturnal panic attacks
Wake me up - I keep falling and I can't get up
Night terrors, nightmares, another attack
To top it off when I wake up, I wake up exhausted
I will rest when I die, I will rest when I die
I cannot deal with my lack of sleep, hallucinations
And I can't deal with the fact I get nocturnal attacks
But the worst aren't the nightmares, or waking up exhausted
It's these dreams that I can't handle, these sweet dreams of you
Maybe I'd rather see nightmares, I think I would be less afraid
And I'd rather have attacks, before I see your face
It's the pain that I can't take, dreams of trust and maybe love
When I know that you are better off, with somebody else
Somebody else
Somebody else
But can I not think about that, for one waking moment
I just want to fucking shut my eyes and drift off to sleep
Fuck these nightmares I am tired of their violence and
Fuck these panic attacks, I'm unhinged 'cause of them
And I will fucking die before I get any peace
I just want to fucking sleep, I just wanna fucking sleep
Now it's 3 am, I'm looking up at the ceiling
Feel like I'm dead and inside and I still cannot fall asleep
Panic disorder, I close my eyes and try and fail
To fall asleep through the night, nocturnal panic attacks
Wake me up - I keep falling and I can't get up
Night terrors, nightmares, another attack
To top it off when I wake up, I wake up exhausted
I will rest when I die, I will rest when I die
Now as I lay me down to sleep, I pray the lord my soul to keep
And if I die before I wake, I pray the lord my soul to take
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6. |
I Now Fear Deviance
03:57
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Involuntarily hospitalized, I am alone in a locked room
A holding cell for the freaks
Physical symptoms of stress, an apathetic view on life
Cue a hotline calling ambulances heading to my place
Not a choice to be made, just the time to get ready
I am put into a holding cell with screams surrounding me
And the nurses come and go, there's no doctor to be seen
Symptoms worsening as I remain still locked up in a cell
Been some hours now, some guy's been staring me down
Screams resound as all the patients try to prove they're not insane
And I shut my mouth, I hug my knees in the corner
With my back to the wall, I don't feel safe here at all
If I was able to fight it, if I was strong enough to run
I begin to shake as I wish I were anywhere but here
Paranoia, fear, a lack of music!
I am breathless in the corner, killing, killing, killing my screams
All the violence brings, the ones who fight and ones who flee
When the headlights shine on me, I can only freeze
And I hate myself! I hate that I can't fight back
Even when the crisis passes I still cower in fear
When the opening comes, and when I get my chance to flee
I know my feet will not move, as I condemn what's left of me
"Calm down, take some more medicine"
"There is no space in the other wards, and you're unwell"
I look up to the nurse, the hard glint's still in my eyes
If they were really here to help me I would not be locked up
I do not trust in their actions, they have no trust in me
Fed with sedatives I hide away and cry beyond their sight
But I can't scream for help, I always feared the retribution
If I go out of line, I'll be insane in their eyes
What next? More drugs? Or higher security?
With no option to speak, I can only listen
Double-locked metal doors, no explanation or a reason
Concrete walls and plastic windows suffocate me here
Paranoia, fear, a lack of music!
I am breathless in the corner, killing, killing, killing my screams
All the violence brings, the ones who fight and ones who flee
When the headlights shine on me, I can only freeze
And I hate myself! I hate that I can't fight back
Even when the crisis passes I still cower in fear
When the opening comes, and when I get my chance to flee
I know my feet will not move, as I condemn what's left of me
I'm allowed to leave, the doctor's signed I'm good to go
Shaking under my skin, I smile, reading his notes
As I read my new prescription, just a higher dose
I write off the possibility of ever coming back
I pull up my mask, and take a taxi back home
I've been writing this the moment I had given myself a chance
Institutionalized, I now fear deviance
I balance on a thread that they call social normalcy
If I fall, no one can catch me
Yet I'm scared to ask for help, I am scared, I am scared and alone.
So if I get out of here, if I reach the end alive
I will look back on this day and wonder how I survived
Paranoia, fear, a lack of music!
I am breathless in the corner, killing, killing, killing my screams
All the violence brings, the ones who fight and ones who flee
When the headlights shine on me, I can only freeze
And I hate myself! I hate that I can't fight back
Even when the crisis passes I still cower in fear
When the opening comes, and when I get my chance to flee
I know my feet will not move, as I condemn what's left of me
Involuntarily hospitalized
I am alone in a locked room
A holding cell for the freaks
There is no freedom for monsters
There is no use for the weak
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7. |
Teach Me How
03:58
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(All I wanted was to love my life)
(And I don't love my life but I try, I try, and I try)
(All I wanted was to love myself)
(And I don't love myself but I try, I try, and I try)
It's the little things, little things that help me trust
There's a feeling I can't explain - they call it love
I know I opened up first, yeah I probably overshared
But the trust that you gave me showed me that you cared
And I've wanted to trust someone, ever since that day
Although I cannot forget, as I watch you walk away
All the words that you gave me, all the secrets that we shared
I will cherish them forever even if you're not there
So teach me how to love, teach me how to trust
Teach me how to live, teach me how to feel, because I am
Still afraid to love, still afraid to trust
And I cannot live inside a body I can't feel
Denial is the longest stage of grief
I am living in a world on my own two feet
I need to, teach myself how to trust, teach myself how to love
Teach myself cause I'm the only one responsible for me
And if there comes a day where I can finally trust
Where I can love myself, when I do love my life
I will stand tall and wave goodbye to it all
I'm the hopeful one was what they always said to me
I will learn to love myself, I will stand up on my own
In the end this is my life and it's the life I know
I have chosen this path, and I will walk it 'til I die
I won't deviate, I thought I'd never say goodbye
Melancholic to the past I review memories as
Lenses tainted in stained glass reflect and refract
Perfect imagery, standards I could never reach
But I need to put it down before that's all I could see
So teach me how to love, teach me how to trust
Teach me how to live, teach me how to feel, because I am
Still afraid to love, still afraid to trust
And I cannot live inside a body I can't feel
Denial is the longest stage of grief
I am living in a world on my own two feet
I need to, teach myself how to trust, teach myself how to love
Teach myself cause I'm the only one responsible for me
And if there comes a day where I can finally trust
Where I can love myself, when I do love my life
I will stand tall and wave goodbye to it all
I'm the hopeful one was what they always said to me
Teach me how to love, teach me how to trust, teach me how to
Teach me how to live, teach me how to feel, because I am
Still afraid to love, still afraid to trust
And I cannot live inside a body I can't feel, I can't feel
All I wanted was to love my life
And I don't love my life but I try, I try, and I try
All I wanted was to love myself
And I don't love myself but I try, I try, and I try
Denial is the longest stage of grief
I am living in a world on my own two feet
I need to, teach myself how to trust, teach myself how to love
Teach myself cause I'm the only one responsible for me
Denial is the longest stage of grief
I am living in a world on my own two feet
I need to, teach myself how to trust, teach myself how to love
Teach myself cause I'm the only one responsible for me
And if there comes a day where I can finally trust
Where I can love myself, when I do love my life
I will stand tall and wave goodbye to it all
I'm the hopeful one was what they always said to me
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8. |
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Of all the things I could dream about it had to be you
Of all the people that I could've loved it had to be you
Love makes me want to die, makes me want to die
You make me want to try, you make me want to try to
Of all the things I could dream about it had to be you
Of all the people that I could've loved it had to be you
I don't want you to suffer, I don't want you to hurt
I told myself that for your smile I would do anything
And I am still confused! I still don't know what to do
If I touch you it will break and these illusions will fade
I want you to be happy, I don't want you to hurt
I told myself that for your smile I would do anything
And I just want to hold you, tell you everything's alright
I couldn't reach out if I wanted to and it makes me cry
This is all one-sided, and I'm the fool that fell in love
When I wake up after dreams, love makes me want to die
I remember your voice, and that stupid fucking grin
Cracking jokes that weren't funny but we thought they were
Still remember your laughter, still remember that smile
How loud your voice gets when you open up and say those fucking words
Why do you still haunt me, its been months since I gave up
However hard I shut it down these feelings never fucking die
And I know that you left, but it still feels like you'll come back
When I give up hope I know that things will never be the same
Please just leave me be, but please don't leave me alone
All I ever want is out of reach as I watch from afar
All I ever want was never mine and still I lost it all
And I am still confused! I still don't know what to do
If I touch you it will break and these illusions will fade
I want you to be happy, I don't want you to hurt
I told myself that for your smile I would do anything
And I just want to hold you, tell you everything's alright
I couldn't reach out if I wanted to and it makes me cry
This is all one-sided, and I'm the fool that fell in love
When I wake up after dreams of you, love makes me want to die
I am tired now, apathetic and in bed
When I think of you I turn the volume up on my phone
But the music doesn't drown out what I feel in my heart
Such a longing that I never knew that I could ever feel
There is hope where its needed, and then there's what I have
I could dream all I want, but one day I will wake up
You are not coming back, and I know I will not force you
By the day I know you're still alive I hope that you're in love
And it pains me to write this, and it pains me to think
I've been putting off the truth, for as long as I could
But you're not coming back, and there was no love there
I was just a friend that you knew you could trust to talk to
I accept this fate, but my heart still keeps on beating
Every movement is painful, and these emotions will not fade
But I'll soldier on until the day that I can forget
I will soldier on until the day I'm finally dead
But I am still confused! I still don't know what to do
If I touch you it will break and these illusions will fade
I want you to be happy, I don't want you to hurt
I told myself that for your smile I would do anything
And I just want to hold you, tell you everything's alright
I couldn't reach out if I wanted to and it makes me cry
This is all one-sided, and I'm the fool that fell in love
When I wake up after dreams of you, love makes me want to die
Love makes me want to die, makes me want to die
You make me want to try, you make me want to try to
Love makes me want to die, makes me want to die
But you make me want to try, you make me want to live
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9. |
Melancholic But Not Sad
03:29
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Melancholic, but not sad
I gazed into the night sky walking back home to my apartment flat
My earphones still in my pockets I was alone with my thoughts
There was this smell in the air that made me think of home
Not a place that I liked, nor a place I remember
When I looked up for a sign I saw the stars above
It's the little things that get me, little details in this world
All grounded in today while I still live in the past
Although I've bent to the weight, and I can't stand to face the truth
Melancholic but not sad, I see the stars above
It feels like years since I've been there, in a place I thought was safe
Kinda funny how I lost what I had clung to the most
In a fire of abandon, all my bridges burned to ash
On a cliff there was a crumbling road but no way home
If I turn back I will fall, if I stay here I will die
No incentive to live, yet I trudge on my way
Without an end to this path, all I want is to go home
There's no exit in sight, and yet I cling onto hope
It's the little things that get me, little details in this world
All grounded in today while I still live in the past
Although I've bent to the weight, and I can't stand to face the truth
Melancholic but not sad, I see the stars above
Melancholic, but not sad
I gazed into the night sky walking back home to my apartment flat
My earphones still in my pockets I was alone with my thoughts
There was this smell in the air that made me think of home
Melancholic but not sad, feels like its been forever
I've always walked towards a sanctuary I've never known
Melancholic but not sad, either give up or go
The day I stop moving forward, is the day that I die
Melancholic but not sad, I keep on looking up
It's the details that will get to me, until the very end.
I am bleeding and I'm bent - but somehow I am not broken
Melancholic but not sad, I see the stars above
It's the little things that get me, little details in this world
All grounded in today while I keep moving forward
Though I don't know what's in store - though I know I may give up
There is some peace in the idea that I did what I could
I will fight until the end - it's the way I want to go
Melancholic but not sad, I keep on walking on
Melancholic but not sad, I keep on looking up
Melancholic but not sad, I see the stars above
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10. |
Music Makes it Better
05:00
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In a reality where, the sky is grey and clouds loom over
Put your headphones on and replay the same tracks again
Under button eyes, my posters hanging off the wall
I stay home and work a boring job that I don't care for
Under quarantine, cast away for jumping ship
I am all alone as music repeats in my ears
And it makes things better, although I face my own decay
All five tracks rewind as I delve into fantasy again
All these sounds in my head, they never cease as I fade out
When reality is dead the music makes it better
Time and time again, when isolation takes its toll
Entertain a feeling I cannot cut off from me
Although I know I may fade, and leave my body to decay
In a lyric I have found a life that I would like to live
With a song I keep my chin up as I drown in my own skin
Tired, washed away - in a world of only grey
Concrete fills my vision as I make my way to groceries
In the produce section, blinding lights that never blink
I put on my earphones turning up the volume on my phone
It's familiar by now, words I know keep flowing in
Tales of others written to a tune that I now recognize
Same 5 tracks again, lining up to the cashier
As I close my eyes I take in songs and put my life on pause
All these sounds in my head, they never cease as I fade out
When reality is dead the music makes it better
Time and time again, when isolation takes its toll
Entertain a feeling I cannot cut off from me
Although I know I may fade, and leave my body to decay
In a lyric I have found a life that I would like to live
Within melodies I've seen paths I'd like to lead
With a song I keep my chin up as I drown in my own skin
Mundane Monday's, pass me by
Another week where I cannot sigh
Thursday has come and I know I've tried
Almost the weekend, then I can write
Almost the weekend, then I can thrive
Mundane Monday's, pass me by
Another week where I cannot sigh
Thursday has come and I know I've tried
Almost the weekend, then I can write
Almost the weekend, then I can thrive
All these sounds in my head, they never cease as I fade out
When reality is dead the music makes it better
Time and time again, when isolation takes its toll
Entertain a feeling I cannot cut off from me
Although I know I may fade, and leave my body to decay
In a lyric I have found a life that I would like to live
Within melodies I've seen paths I'd like to lead
With a song I keep my chin up as I drown in my own skin
In a reality where, the sky is grey and clouds loom over
Put your headphones on and replay the same tracks again
And it makes things better, although I fight my own decay
All five tracks rewind as I face this reality ahead
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Still tired, still scared, still angry
I am living a life that only I can carry
Even though I am scared, I will prevail
Through this storm I will stay, despite my fears
Even though I am tired, I will remain
Through the dark I will still, still stay alive
In this life that I live, I choose to face myself or die
Say the truth once more, I know I have to stay alive
Through a cyclical mind, I suffer from this depression
But death will not be the answer, to isolation I've chosen
So live through, survive, against all the odds
In trauma I was forged but I am not what they have wrought
There is a difference when I know that I can be something else
There is some hope when I am fighting to believe in myself
There is hurt in my life, there is sadness in these words
I was so desperate for closure, I forgot myself
I will live, die, I will fight by your side
Through these songs I face my truth, while I fight to survive
And I fight to stay alive
I will fight to stay alive
Even though I am scared, I will prevail
Through this storm I will stay, despite my fears
Even though I am tired, I will remain
Through the dark I will still, still stay alive
Still tired, still scared, still angry
I am living a life that only I can carry
Still hopeful, still bent, but not bleeding
Despite my fears I'll prevail, against the odds I'm still alive
Still tired, still scared, still angry
I am living a life that only I can carry
Still hopeful, still bent, but not bleeding
Despite my fears I'll prevail, against the odds I will survive
Even though I am scared, I will prevail
Through this storm I will stay, despite my fears
Even though I am tired, I will remain
Through the dark I will still, still stay alive
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