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The stars are so bright, tonight
In my line of sight, still I fail to find
All the stars shining bright as I fall to the sky
Everything, everything hurts
All of the nights that I once had come flooding back
And all these dreams of mine
Ghosts of a nightmare I once had come rushing in
All of these dreams were mine
Until they were broken, still they are broken in parts
What do you do when ghosts haunt your dreams
And vivid nightmares are all that you see
When every step is misplaced
And the traces of dreams that you once had are dead and gone
What do you do when you fall
You spiral and flashback to times where it all hit a wall
All of it, all of it hurts
This feeling is pain and I wish I could tear it apart
Unwilling to die, they scream in the night
I clamp my ears, keep my eyes off the light
My beating heart goes faster
I panic and flash to a time where it stopped
Had I died, forever I'd lie
In a place so cold, so devoid of life
Had I tried, maybe I'd be alright
I rock back and forth as I cover my eyes
What do you do when ghosts haunt your dreams
And vivid nightmares are all that you see
When every step is misplaced
And the traces of dreams that you once had are dead and gone
What do you do when you fall
You spiral and flashback to times where it all hit a wall
All of it, all of it hurts
This feeling is pain and I wish I could tear it apart
And I see ghosts in my shadows
The haunts and the hallows
Who deserve to be resting in peace
I see the dreams I've forgotten
Their corpses are rotten
And all that I wish for is sleep
All that I wish for is sleep
Time and time, sometimes I'll stop in a stupor, of things I've forgotten and pain I remember
When all that I know is a trembling surrender, there's people who've hurt me in my head dismembered
So look to the stars and condemn all the embers of hate that you once knew and pain, I'll remember
The stars are so bright, tonight
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Promises I Can't Keep
03:24
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I promised I would kill myself before I turned 18, I didn't know a life outside the house that I lived
And when the time came it seemed, that it was just another dream, to live a life in a world where I thought I was free
But I fucked up, I got scared, and I told an adult, I was put into the psych ward without another way out
I was 16, ambitious, with my sights to the sky, I knew that I needed help to leave before I died
In this household, where my mother didn't want any help, and my dad would have these tantrums that we put on the shelf
And when it hit me, I remember that I only saw red - I never fought back, afraid that I would only be dead
I thought the only option that I had was murder suicide, and by the day I turned 18 I would kill them - and I
Kill me in a way I won't survive
I'm still alive
Now I'm 26, alive, but supposed to be dead, where did I go wrong, these promises I kept in my head
Am I happy? I'm alive, but only time will tell, if I'm the victor of the story or the villain as well
Still alive, there are promises that I can't keep, and if my younger self haunts me, then why can I still sleep
There's a way out, I know that may lead to regret, but if I get out alive - I will see it to the end
Kill me in a way I won't survive
I'm still alive
I'm still alive
Kill me in a way I won't survive
I'm still alive
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Domestic Violence
04:06
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Physically abused, a specimen of DV
The setting starts with a kid, not an adult in sight
When the spotlight comes on, the child's all but blinded
Not a saint in the room, point your fingers and -
The physicality, the pain that comes with abuse
Your trembling body with shame, nobody wants to hear
Not a victim, just a number, all the signs of neglect
You swear you'll never forgive them, until your last breath
When the flashbacks hit, you are right where you started
All the progress you've made, still you crave the pain
There is no one hell, like the one you were born in
When you awake, will you stay the same?
Can you stay the same?
There's a house in the backdrop, but nobody can see
What goes on behind locked doors, and closed curtains
Love is nothing but a tool, used against your own will
When they hit you, you don't question if their love was real
And the world will prove you right, again and again
You are special when you're worthless to society
You will feel insane, you will feel as if you've lost it
And when happiness finds you, you won't know what it cost
When the flashbacks hit, you are right where you started
All the progress you've made, still you crave the pain
There is no one hell, like the one you were born in
When you awake, will you stay the same?
Pain, it's all I've ever known, awake in this home
I feel the trembling begin to arise
The need to suppress, any cries for help
I stay in bed, just to hide away
When all is lost
I pray to a god, for the pain to end
But god never answered, he never picked up the phone
And I am alone now, shaking inside my bones
One day I will discover, that I've already found out
Another way out
Another way out
Another way out
Another way out
When the flashbacks hit, you are right where you started
All the progress you've made, still you crave the pain
There is no one hell, like the one you were born in
When you awake, will you stay the same?
Can you stay the same?
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